Goodbye Grandpa 13062012

So much had happen since i pause blogging for who cares how long,

its because of my hectic life in college, and family, it hasnt been much of a good month for me, the pass away of my grandfather, pile up of reports and also my massive project.

The pass away of my grandfather 13062012 had been devastating to my family because my family cared for him, and he had stay in my home for mostly about 10 years when he has 8 childrens which include my mom, well, every family has their own story, honestly, dont get me started with the story, the irresponsible son towards the father, i hope this sentence sums up everything.

his funeral, and his favorite belongings (spec and his watch)

where he kept it with him all the time no matter where he is, they will be with him

During the funeral, everyone was so intense, when our mothers were crying, my cousins and i felt the sadness within too, is like when yr mother cry, u will cry too.. its kinda hard to describe the feeling, and i dont wanna feel that experience again, and i hope i wont see my mom cry like that again. NEVER.. its just devastating.

i always had thought that im a person that would face everything optimistic and always face something with a smile and not cry over it, but this is just not something i can stop myself from crying it out loud.

when i got the news from my dad thru the phone about his gonna be going away, i was like 'are you kidding me??!! how could this be? he had been such a rock headed man and he had been thru so much where he can stll also go thru this and get healed up' but minutes later my dad called again and telling me that his gone, i was like 'WTF!!! it couldnt be', and i started dripping tears when i was on the way to college in my friends car. (even whem im typing this i feel the shocking again)

In a way, im actually kinda glad that he passed away, because he can finally stop from all the suffering that his facing in the government hospital, and all other stuff,

Grandpa, i will be missing u in my life, i hope you, have a better life in yr next life